By jellyvine on Skatehive
(Peace na agad. Haha) Humans are naturally self-serving. I see that clearly. Most people are self-serving in obvious ways, but me? I take detours. I help. I support. I show up for people. And if I’m being honest, part of that is because it makes me feel good about myself. It boosts my ego a little. “Ah, I’m a good person.” Haha. But I won’t pretend that’s the whole story. What I’ve realized is this: it’s not just about feeling good. I actually want my help to work. I don’t just want to show up. I want results. I want people to do better, live better, choose better. And when they don’t… I get upset. That’s where it gets real. Because now I see it’s not just self-serving in a shallow sense. I get attached to outcomes. I care, yes. But I also expect something from that care, even if I don’t say it out loud most of the time. And if I’m not careful, that can quietly turn into control, AGAIN. “I helped you, so you should be better.” “I guided you, so why are you still like that?” Been there,