By lhanie11 on Skatehive
Hello everyone. Thanks reading my posts. Within myself, there is a continual exchange—how I see myself against the way everyone else sees me. Occasionally, the pair match up clearly. That seems satisfying, as though viewing myself distinctly in a shiny surface. Frankly speaking, for the most part, they aren’t aligned. Whenever they clash, things become strange. It’s puzzling, from time to time maddening, as well as, if you don’t resist, it could affect you deeply. I evaluate myself based on my purposes. I understand what I intend to accomplish—despite the fact that things don’t go as planned. I observe the little conflicts: determination, exertion, development that nobody else perceives. I evaluate myself based on my strength to persistently come back, even though I don’t always come out on top. So, for me, I’m always in the process of becoming better. Less than perfect—possibly quite distant from that—yet constantly learning. But other people? They don’t see any of that. They just see