By merit.ahama on Skatehive
All my life, I simply make things up as I go, impulsively getting things done or acquiring something. I think this had a lot to do with how I always think that I'm not worthy of having great or really cool ideas, others always seem to have better ideas than I ever could so I just go with what I've seen others do and it seemed to work. I may have made a few plans in the past that I tried to follow through but I remember just how well I let people influence those plans that I always see it as a huge task to follow through with. I just preferred not stressing over planning and just go by the flow, it helped me hide my flaws since there was no need to act as the lead. While that is changing now, I can't help but realised just how much would have changed for me and those around me if I had been more intentional in making plans so I don't just drift wherever the wind blows me to. Till this moment, I think most for the experiences I've had were not from a place of planning, they had just happ