By philnick on Skatehive
Hey everyone! I wanted to share a bit about my story, my struggles and my healing. Hoping that if anyone is going through something similar this may help them in some way. Last year I was down, drinking every chance I could, smoking non stop, my relationship ended, nothing seemed like was going to get better. The truth is that it didn't get better until I was ready to make a change in my life. I decided to try complete sobriety, I was seeking clarity and trying to prioritize what's important, our self love. I started seeing a therapist and I found a someone who I could really communicate with openly and it helped me understand where my behaviours were coming from. I never dealt with past traumas of my life, emotional abuse and neglect shaped a lot of my childhood. The way I dealt with these was by creating a quiet persona, a self defense mechanism to get by unnoticed, I would shut myself off and disappear, hoping not to become a problem for anyone. This survival mechanism became a trau